Pretty, pretty girl.

This morning I rolled out of bed, started doing bills, started cleaning, all the usual things. I see Chris staring at me. I'm like, "Whatttt?"
Chris, "Why the fuck do you wear your sweatpants so high?
Me, "Why do you always start with me? I fucking don't..."

Chris, "Yes, you do. What is wrong with you? Get the camera & stand there."

I comply.

This is what follows:

 

 

 

I just lost on so many levels.

Maybe a little insight on why I don't get laid?
1. Sweatpants are indeed high.
2. I am in fact wearing a pregnancy bellyband as a tubetop.
3. He is actually being forgiving when he calls me, "Ugly as dick" in the morning.

 

Mom of A Boy

We have busy kid. He is a wild 5 year old who does not like to sit still. A great kid, an exhausting kid. Eager, full of energy, compassionate, thoughtful, curious, wants to do it all- wants to know it all. My kind of kid, my kid- who may seem overwhelming to some, is perfect by me. People with and without kids, especially not having a boy, or a boy who has not reached a certain age, have no idea. People who compare kids, especially boys to girls- I want to throat punch you all. I think the judgmental people forget that you are judging the parents as well. I think you think your snide undertone is not picked up in your offhanded comments. All of the traits my wild son has will be respected and adored when he is grown...completely worth the trouble of reining them in now. Mothers of boys his age will understand, but all other people should hold enough common sense to at least try and understand. We buy a thousand pairs of jeans a year, he eats an obscene amount of food, he talks incessantly, asks more questions than any one person should be allowed to in a lifetime, shows off like he is his own reality show, and has the attention span of a walnut. He is mine. I have a happy, content child. I have a happy, content baby. I am doing it right. I am not a warden, a Nazi, a drill Sargent, or an old western regulator. My style of parenting is not yours. My offspring is not yours to judge. He is everything I want him to be- should that be too much for anyone, feel free to make your own kid your protege. I am busy allowing mine to become an individual.

Big backpack, Big Love.

A Kindergartner. Being able to remember some of my own Kindergarten memories so clearly make it that much more surreal to be on the mothering end of it all. Here it is though, September, and my first born, my 4 year old love of my life is gone for an entire day. Who will build Lego cities with me all day, who will make me dress as a super hero, or villain depending on if he feels like smacking me around that day or not. Should I feel like an empty nester right now? His entire first day I felt like I was missing a part of myself, a constant ache. His small body toting that big backpack into that big school hallway was the culmination of the last almost 5 years. I wanted to pull my heart out of my chest and scream at it to calm down, that it didn't have to break- that this was a wonderful thing!
And it was.
At 3:30 when his happy face came through the door and hugged me with enough force to knock me down- there it was. He loved it. He was excited for the next day, he said that he had a great time. He ate every bit of the lunch I packed for him. He came home unscathed and in great spirits. I silently scolded myself for being so selfish, for thinking of my own breaking heart, about how I felt.
And then I said, "Fuck you, self. That's YOUR baby".
The first time I laid my eyes on him, I knew I would feel everything he felt, that I would feel everything for him, take away the bad and replace it with the good if I could. Today was OUR first, and I am so happy that I felt the bad and he felt the good. There is no other way I could wish it to be. That beautiful boy with his big eyes, his big smile, and big personality- he's still mine. I just have to accept letting him go a little bit and allow the world to help make those things become bigger & bigger.

Boop.

It is amazing how something so sweet and endearing can take a turn for the worst. Just laying in bed, giggling, cuddling, playing. Here it comes, a play full little face to face, finger to nose..."boop". Except for it wasn't just an innocent "boop". Girth booping me is adorable, I really do love it. It's cutesy, it's reminiscent of those first few months of a relationship. But then...then shit got real. Like I said- we were face to face. His mouth was just centimeters above my nose. That was his downfall. The word "boop" lost it's lovey feel instantaneously. All because along with it came his breath. Hot, unfiltered, "fuck my toothbrush today" breath. I swear I saw rings of hot breath coming down to my vulnerable nose, rings like that omitted from an 80's style death ray comic gun. I was helpless, stunned. How does a "boop" go so wrong? Comfortability, that's how. Had we been "new", he would have scrubbed those chomps before getting all up in my grill. Being together for eons though, it is obviously not an issue. You think about it in the beginning, you work to impress (amazing how brushing your teeth before bed falls under "impress")...just like you should be doing all along anyway, maintaining. So I give points for the "boop", but am left with no choice but to deduct for the trash can he pulled that "boop" out of. Trying to get a fresh "boop" is like pulling, well, or brushing, mother truckin' teeth around here.  I could offer a mouth hug every single day- but if I press my lips to his face and offer it, he'd probably pass if my breath made his dick shrivel, tuck, and hide itself behind his balls. Offer it like you wanna give it. If I really want to get dirty- I'll be prepped. You want me to swoon to your "boop"? Better brush dem' teefs. Damnnnnn, daddy,

 

Catch Up.

Came home from work last night demanding sex. Farted way too loudly while getting naked and almost ruined it for myself. Lucklily he took pity on me and porked me anyway. My husband has a heart of gold. It really is up to him to put out when I say anyway, since this was his way of thinking...crazy girth. Aside from that, has Summer really begun? Is it just an obsolete season once your mid-thirties have been reached? Last year I wanted to arrange a "Sloppy Slumberparty" for us girls that did not pan out because life got in the way. I am thinking this needs to happen now more than ever. A hotel/motel room for the night, cheap liquor, gossip, all of it. We will drink, laugh, cry, bitch, show our boobs and other random body parts- and then pass out. Perfect. The one thing I have noticed about being in your thirties, you know who you are, and what you believe in. You are able to forge stronger, sturdier friendships...you just don't get to spend as much time with them!
****As you may have noticed, I have plugged some older blogs. Boom.

On a good note, I have an appontment to get my jugs looked at. Final say-so on a hopefull reduction...
I. Can't. Wait. I will post pics, open to blog subscribers only though.

On another completely unrelated note, I think another "note to self" is in order. Just so many changes...

Periodpoundspoop.

The last time I made a post was May 19th. The one where I lied and said that I would re-post my bod in 30 days to show my weightloss. Where I said no carbs, and I would be working out. All lies. Well, I did end up refraining from carbs, for some of the time. Definitely didn't exercise, continue the squats, or ab challenge. Fuck it. On May 19th I tipped the scale at 160. Almost 2 months later, 150 pounds is wrapped around my bones. My body was crazy and way bloated- waiting on a red tide that I never thought would come. And then one morning it did. I woke up at 4 a.m. because I thought a small troll and tunneled through my vagina and starting ripping a weedwhacker all up in and around my abdomen. Got up to pee and it looked like the high point of a horror movie. Within 3 days, I lost 6 pounds. My body raged, from my knees to my teets. I also had the first best poop since having Charlee. It was the size of a toddlers arm. Chris had to buy an industrial plunger for my industrial sized poo. My body seriously unloaded 6 lbs worth of fluid and literal shit within 3 days. Here's the total 10 pound loss results:

 

 

160lbs............................150lbs

 

Now maybe I will work for another 10lbs.
See if I can't shake off some of that moose knuckle.

 

 

 

Getting rid of some fluff.

Once again it is time to crack down on this big ass. 6 weeks post baby and there is work to be done. Last years squat challenge was successful because I put my mom ass on blast and shared photos of the progress. This time, it is the squat challenge, plus 10-15lbs needing to go. So. As of today I will refrain from carbs like they are the plague, and begin the treacherous squat challenge, again. I won't be updating this progress weekly, only crying about it weekly. In 30 days I will re-post a photo, failure or otherwise. As of right now I am soft and fluffy, hopefully in 30 days time I will be a smaller version of soft and fluffy. I have no desire to be solid, toned, muscular. I am a fan of the softness in a woman's body, I just want a healthier style of it. I want to wear a bikini and I want to be back into last Summers cut offs without a muffin top or bottom ass spillage. That aim may not be particularly high, but it is happy.  Here is my body now, in all of its 160 pound, 5 foot 2 inch tall glory.
                                   Ken doll dick included.

 

These underwear are, much to my husbands dismay, usually pulled above my belly button. I will sacrifice my comfort for the sake of this photo.
You're welcome.
See you in 30 days.